The Christmas holiday mood has spread wildly like virus today and the office is so damn quiet. So quiet that it affect my mood to do my work. So quiet that it gives way for me to flash back the bad memories that I’ve gone through. So quiet that it allows me being emotional again.

I feel blessed to have circle of friends and family supporting me morally all this while, I am so damn grateful. There is no other word that can describe it apart from a big ‘THANK YOU’ to you all. I love you all dearly and will never forget what you’ve have done to me. Though I may not be able to return all the good deeds in material term but having the thought of remembering the good deeds to me matter the most.

You’ll never know what you will get in return by doing good deeds. What goes around, comes around and things happen when you least expect it.

Knowing Christmas is just round the corner, it just breaks my heart as I was looking forward to celebrate Christmas with you. Now, I can’t do that. I have to accept the fact that you will soon be permanently erased from my memory. I am still grieving over things that have happened but I promised myself it’s going to be over soon. It is tough life out there and I have to learn how to give and take.

When you fetch me from work the other day, we were listening to Christmas songs in the car. And I kept it to myself that I would give you a surprise for this Christmas by buying you collection of greatest Christmas songs and one of the songs is specially dedicate to you. It seems that it will not happen and it never happens.

I hope you like the song which was meant for you at the first place.
I just want to wish you a blessed Christmas and many years to come. I begin to see things in many perspectives now; one of it is I’ve learnt how to forgive and forget and thank you for that.

Thank you for the memories and let’s celebrate the joy of Christmas peacefully.