Just Not My Day

I want to remember this day. A day that when everything doesn’t go accordingly. A day that taught me valuable lessons. A day that I hope will make me a wiser person in the future.

On my way to settle some housing matter with EPF, my car produces unpleasant sound. It came from the car engine. I went to my brother for solution, believing my car will be taken care of and go to work as usual. I told myself that I can find another option to get the EPF matter settled. It is not the end of the day for me.

At office, I received nasty emails and I accept that as challenges. In career, there are always people who wish to see you go down when they find you as a threat. I accept that with open heart and move on progressing in life. I have to be strong. I can’t be bothered as it can disstract my focus in life.

I continue the day by attending class. Class was fun. The lecturer provide some tips on topics that will be covered in tommorrow’s exam. I was excited. I can’t wait to sit for the exam until I saw my grade of the last exam via Moodle. I was dissappointed. I felt demotivated. It wasn’t the grade that I expected. It took me nearly 3 hours to pull myself together and told myself that I can get good grade. After all, I have 2 more exams to sit and those grades later will be combine with today’s grade.

During lunch, I went to EPF’s office as my sister was kind enough to offer me a lift. She had some errands to attend too. We had lunch together after both of us settled our matters. She shared with me on her fear of my mom response toward her new career offer. Mom has always been the dominant figure in the family and most of the decision comes from her. I told sis to deal with it wisely and I’ll do my part to support her new career.

After office hours end, I accompany my ‘Pek’ to town. She gonna be traveling soon. I took the opportunity to buy some groceries only to realise that I’m broke upon withdrawal some cash. Back in the head I was trying to figure out on what I had spend on. It was on food.

When I reach home, I sense something is not right until my brother told me the bad news. My car has ‘give up’ on me. My heart melt! I was devastated yet I can’t cry. I felt lost yet I’m not alone. My mind goes blank.

Despite all that, I am trying hard to study but ialways get dissatracted in between. The things that happened today really bothered me and that lead me to writing this post.

I just hope tommorrow will be a better day for me. I believe there is always a better day for everyone. I believe everyone deserve a better day.

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  1. willie

    8 October, 2010 at 10:39 am

    My my…I am sorry to hear that. But you ain’t alone. Everybody experience hardship in life.

    This week I lost RM890 to my car. My car need fixing and it’s urgent. I had to withdraw my savings to fix it. It was hard.

    Then, I ordered online item and I didn’t receive it for 7 days already when the person told me it’s 3 days. I emailed them to enquire about it, but there was no response. I remembered when I placed my order, just a matter of hours, they called me up requesting for payment.

    I remembered during my study years. I love economics subject so much. I did well in the assignments and I thought I would pass the paper. But then, I failed, I had to sit for the paper twice. It was the most disappointing moment for me. If i passed, i could have graduated a year earlier.

    Now my friend, stand up and be strong, problems and challenges will come and go, but we shall never fade.

    Have a nice day.

    1. ladybirdmollyz

      8 October, 2010 at 4:27 pm

      thank you for the encouragement here. i really appreciate it. i know there are others who had been in even worst situation than mine and that’s why i want to jott it down here so that i can always look back to laugh and to cry on.

      the challenges that we faced yesterday, today and many more to come actually had/will mould us into someone/somebody. whether its for the good or bad, it is up to us to decide. whatever it is, i shall never let my faith fade away.

      thank you for your sharing my dear friend coz not many willing to step forward like what you’ve just did. now i know im not ‘alone’. 🙂

  2. Uncle Lee

    9 October, 2010 at 8:53 am

    Hi Ladybird, our life will always have hiccup days.
    Sometimes they happen all in the same day.
    You just stay positive like what you now doing….

    Whatever it is, you will get thru this day, and others that may come….just try concentrate on your work and studies….the World is waiting for your footprints.
    You stay easy, have a pleasant weekend, Lee.

    1. ladybirdmollyz

      11 October, 2010 at 11:49 am

      uncle lee, you’re such an inspiration to me and you never fail in cheering and motivating me. thank you and having this from you is very comforting. you’re the one of the reason for me to be always stay positive in life. 🙂

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