I cried for the very first time, I wiped my eyes and buried the past. All of my memories; bad and good that past, I don’t want to take time to realize it…it hurts…it is so bloody painful. I feel that I’m been cursed; death is rolling in every verse.

Fuckkk this hurts I won’t lie, doesn’t matter how hard I try…the truth is you can stop and stare, no one cares and I bleed myself. I bleed deeper just to throw everything away.

I’ve pull myself this far, I’ve opened up this scars and I’ll have to face it. I was fine before you walked into my life. I’m waiting for all of it to come to an end, still I curled myself on the bed…staring at the ceiling blankly because it’s taking over my head all over again.

I’m not here for your entertainment. I’m not…I’m not…

I closed my eyes…strange…I can’t feel the warm tears rolling slowly on my cheeks anymore. Instead I can feel the warmth of blood drips slowly on my wrist…strange…I just stare at it.

I’m tired.

I’m lonely.

Leave me alone…leave me alone for now… *sob sob sob*