Lately, I tend to loose focus easily. I’m not quite sure what has cause it but I guess I’m at a certain stage of life that I myself can’t figure it out. I may sound pathetic but to keep myself positive about it, I keep on telling myself that it is normal…

…normal as it may be due to the result of aging, normal as it may be due to stress, normal as it may be due to the weather changes lately, normal as it may be due to lack of attention, normal as it may be due to hectic working and socializing schedules or maybe it’s normal for a loner like me.

*fainted with one eye closed* ;p

Deep inside me wonders whether others do experiencing like what I’m going through. *rolling eyes*

So, I took a color personality test earlier on…just to find out some facts that I myself may not aware of before this, just to find out whether losing focus has something to do with my personality and just to find out whether I am still somebody that is worth to be with. *smiles*

I am not happy nor do I feel upset with the personality test but I fully agreed with the results. I’m surprised to find that I have a strong personality that likes to take risks in life and yes I am the type that doesn’t like to be told on what to do especially when it comes from those who know nuts. Not worth it, really. I usually ask this type of person to fuck off from my sight, serious. *lifted up both of my middle fingers*

Yes, I agreed with my result on my appearance. I’m a simple person and lead a simple life. I would only dress to kill only when it is required and applicable. To me, there is no point of showing off your appearance; wearing branded stuffs though nowadays you can get it easily online. I rather show off my intelligence instead. *smiles*

Maybe I am the aggressive type and I can only tell when I have my own business in future. But one thing for sure for now, any ideas, plans and suggestions contributed by me will definitely take into account by my team. Occasionally, I even offended some people for being ‘loud’ on certain issues that should have been taken care of, to the extend of planning a disciplinary action against me which didn’t bother me at all. I treated it as abusing authority power to the sub-ordinates and till today no formal report has been submitted.

Errkk talking about personal life…most of the time I wonder why am I not aggressive in relationship. No wonder I have gone through series of failures. I think if I were to compiled it, I can come out with series of tv dramas perhaps may win awards. ;p Maybe that is why I am not comfortable to talk about it plus I treated my personal life as a sacred thing which only to be share when it is required. Heiii…I aint a perfect person so its normal, I guess so. *rolling eyes*

Well, who doesn’t? Everybody wants to portray the good side of you. Screw you if you don’t agree with this statement. :)) When it comes to spending, I will go for quality and that is only when I have the capital to do so. As for now, I’m living life moderately…yes the correct word that explain everything – moderately.

LOL, actually I don’t find myself as a sociable person but I guess I fall into this category simply because of my friendly attitude. I on the other hand prefer not to make a first move to know someone new in any relationship; be it business or friendship kind of relationship. I rather wait and see, listen and observe the moves then only I make my moves. It works all the time and it amazed some though I just get to know them less than 24 hours.

Little that I knew, being ‘myself’ has scared away all the bugs that wanted to mate this LadyBird. ;p *nngeeeeeeee*

I respect my friends regardless what sort of pass they had in life. I have a simple rule…to gain any respect you have to respect others first. Failure to do so, do not expect any respect in return. Come to think of it, no wonder I always end up as ‘un-official appointed Counselor’.

Easily been persuaded by others? Hhmm…I doubt it as I prefer to hear both sides point of view and would opt for the best solutions so the results might give the impression of easily persuaded. Oh well, bottom line is a matter of how you take things and dwell with it. ;p

After going through this personality test, it clearly shows I am still within the normal parameter (yes, I’m complimenting myself ;p). I’ve not going crazy yet and I want to stay this way for whatever it takes. The fact is I am still working hard on placing professional inputs in my appraisal form yet I can come out with tones of outputs in my blog.

*giggled*

I have 2 more days to go nnggeeeeeee… ;p

Focus…focus…focus…