The Un-Explainable Thoughts of Mine

Lately, every morning when I woke up, there’s this weird feeling within me…I can feel it but it’s beyond my description. Maybe I’m out of word to describe it well here and maybe one day, I’ll know the right word or sentence to fully describe what was in my mind. The only thing I can describe about it now is…I just felt satisfied…appreciated…and feeling lucky somehow.

Waking up early in the morning, hearing the sounds of the rooster waking up the neighborhood, you’ll get to hear and see school buses came in and go to fetch students in the neighborhood, groups of people waiting for their transport at the road side, some who had to leave early to their work places started to warm up their car engines and me on the other hand enjoying every single moment of my observation from my house window.

It makes me wonder how great life is; be it to individual or be it to a family.

I used to rent houses back then and I used to envy those who had their own house; simply because they can do whatever they want to the house without seeking the landlord permission. Now, I had a home and I can do whatever pleases me. Little that I knew by owning a home is not as easy as what I’ve envied before. It is actually more than that.

I used to envy those who owned their own car. Back then I depend on the public transport and sometimes hopped in friend’s car to work. Now, I had my own car and I can go wherever I want to. Little that I knew by owning a car is not as easy as what I’ve envied before. It is actually more than that.

I used to envy those who had bigger pay than me; simply because they can have more stuffs than me. Back then with RM500 salary per month, I barely survived and always ask for extra cash from my parent. Now, though my pay had increased and barely enough to cover monthly expenses still I survived and no longer depend on my parent for extra cash. Little that I knew by having bigger pay is not as easy as what I’ve envied before. It is actually more than that.

It makes me wonder how life has changed for me.

I begin to appreciate what I have. What more can I ask? I have everything that I wanted in life.

It makes me feel lucky in a way as I was given the opportunity to feel all of this and dwell with it though at times I do feel want to give it up but I didn’t.

It makes me strong every day.

It makes me who I am today.

And I want to stay that way…physically and mentally strong.

What about you??

14 Comments

  1. Desmond

    23 January, 2008 at 10:55 am

    Life is about change – every second, every minute -the formula is X(time) = (Change)- when you increase the value of X, the value of Change also changes accordingly so make the best of ‘X’ so that the changes that takes place in one’s heart and soul is of great value before our Time on Earth ends for X of Life is not infinite, but that of the Soul is… but hey don’t listen to me – i wuz never good in Maths.

  2. melbie

    23 January, 2008 at 10:57 am

    It sure is a good feeling knowing that you’re physically and mentally strong isn’t it?

    I never had the chance to envy those with cars before, but I do envy those with nicer cars hehe .. .but as you said, it’s not easy as it looks!

    Counting my blessings, that’s what I do now 🙂

  3. Sileast20

    23 January, 2008 at 6:28 pm

    Hi,it had been a long time since I last commented this blog of ur’s. And I must say that this one caught my eye and really I find it relevant to mine(my life) all this while. having thought’s of being someone who already upgraded, had life changed and not like life before.
    I got used to it after those long hard thought’s since I came here to the west. And I do find myself really different from what I am before, being able to owned stuff which I used to only wonder whether I would actually own any of them myself even as far as 3 years ago before this.
    But anyway, I try not to go to far in my life. And try to appreciate every moment of it no matter bad or good.
    U have a nice time and if GOD’s willing I will meet up with ya when I return home next week. Catcha later.

  4. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 12:05 am

    Desmond,
    Whn it cm 2 tis matter, gud o perfect calculation dsnt matter. Like wat u’ve jst mentioned…its about change every second, every minute…oh mannn i luv tat sentence – it xplains everything! 🙂

    I bet all of us r making d best out of ‘X’ and only ‘X’ will tells whthr we hv succeed, kan?? 🙂

  5. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 12:07 am

    Mel,
    Hell yeah, it feels gud n I hope it will last in me 4ever 2 move on wt life. I wish d same 4 u 2 as I m also counting my blessings here.. 🙂

  6. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 12:11 am

    Sileast,
    I understand n ‘feel’ u 2yang. Yr statement is well presented n tat exactly wat i hd in mind all tis while. Like wat u said, will nt go far…goin further moderately wud b d best move…don u think so?

  7. tsyen75

    24 January, 2008 at 2:37 am

    When we can wake up and open our eyes, each day is the new birth of a new life, a new beginning to start our life afresh.

    Cheers!

  8. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 2:42 am

    Tsyen75,
    well said n i cudnt agree more.. 😉

  9. NeW OdD ReFresHing AppeaLing NoRa

    24 January, 2008 at 5:20 am

    If you were preaching, I would have said Amen at every statements. I use to have the same thought and feeling towards having my own house, cars and pay check and now I ahve to endure the aftermaths of having all 3.. hehehe.. but It does make us a better person, one way or another..

  10. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 5:46 am

    CorkyNorah,
    lol..u mk me laughed whn u said im preaching. rasa2 ko aku tok ada bakat jd pastor ke sik ahakz…well, i bet everybody does feel d same like wat we felt n yes it does mk us a better person aftr all…;)

  11. ~pinky munkey~

    24 January, 2008 at 7:19 am

    Reading this remind me of myself last time. I always envy my friend because they always get what ever they want. But now things change. I found that being able to get things dat you want by yourself much-much more satisying :). As long as i have my job and every month have my pay check i’ll be ok hehe…simple life is much better..
    dont you think?? hehe

  12. Mystery LadyBird

    24 January, 2008 at 7:28 am

    PinkeyMunkey,
    i cudnt agree more..well said n glad 2knw tat we r in d same boat..:)

  13. Jeanne

    25 January, 2008 at 2:54 pm

    i envied also another people that better than mine, but it has no ending… it’s better to be yourself and accepting what you have. that was my opinion 🙂

  14. Mystery LadyBird

    25 January, 2008 at 4:52 pm

    same here Jeanne.. 😉

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